Doppleganger

When I was younger I always thought someone out there in the world exactly like me. I 100% believed that the world is so big and there are so many people out there, that there were two of everyone. Part of me thought there was someone that looked exactly like me out there or someone who thought the same thoughts as me. This seemed like a definite possibility to me and it was comforting to me, I believe it was comforting because when your younger it feels good to know that you're not different than everyone else and there's someone you can relate to. Now I think to see someone who looks exactly like me would scare the sh*t out of me, even to think that there is someone who thinks the same things as me is frightening. To think that I am not an individual, that the way I look, the things I have done and gone through, and the way I look at the world can be reflected in another person, makes me feel like the way I have affected those around me is not as important or meaningful as I thought.

The idea of the evil side of me expressed in a doppelganger is even scarier. I know I have demons inside of me, as well as any person does (even the happiest and friendliest person I have met), but what makes me a good person is my ability to keep those demons under control. Some of the demons I know of include a bad temper (commonly known as the infamous "Duffy temper gene"), holding grudges, being judgmental, and anger. These are the ones that I consciously have to battle with, I know that deep down that there are even more demons (hey I'm human) that I don't have to consciously battle with often, but there still there. It would be frightening to see a doppelganger of my self that expresses these traits and keeps my good traits held under the surface. It sure would make you question who you really are, if someone who is essentially you could act that way, it would make you think about the possibility of you showing these horrible characteristics to others. Do we sometime unconsciously do this? I don't want to see my bad qualities, give me a doppelganger of all my good qualities.

Thinking about my evil doppelganger makes me want to be a better person, just to prove to myself that these qualities of my evil doppelganger are not me. The biggest problem I want to face with my doppelganger is not an emotional one, but the fight for survival when my friends can't tell me apart from my doppelganger, case in point: http://www.hulu.com/watch/1588/saturday-night-live-doppleganger.